Polling station at Ballsbridge Colleger, Ballsbridge, Dublin 4 this morning
Laura Jane writes:
I have just voted. I found myself completely overwhelmed and in tears on the steps outside of the polling station. What have i done? Have i done the right thing?
I am crying for the lives i may have helped to be no more, I am crying for the women and girls who are scared and trapped and need an out. I am crying because the weight of this referendum and the campaign has taken its toll.
I have been open and listened and felt and heard and now i am spent. I am scared of what a YES will mean but i am terrified of a what a NO will continue to bring. NO won’t save lives, it will continue to ruin them. Those babies will still die but the hearts of the women will be broken by their decision and their only option to travel or to take poison alone in their homes.
YES will not save babies but it will save women. I am terrified to rely on healthcare in Ireland, i am terrified to be potentially trapped, in need. I am terrified that NO will win and i will continue to be at risk.
I will take the weight of a YES, of all those babies lives. I will balance it in the knowledge that my YES might and should result in their mothers lives being saved. I have to hold on to that. I am broken my this whole sorry mess.