Briann

Brian Anglim wites:

I’ve been depressed since as far back as I can remember, sometimes for weeks and months at a time. But as I’ve gotten older things have gotten worse, more ingrained into my everyday life and routine.

Recently I’ve had trouble sleeping, trouble staying motivated and trouble staying happy. If I’ve nothing immediate to worry or stress over I’ll find something to get anxious about.

Up until now only a handful of close friends and family know about it but since reading Garreth MacNamee’s brutally honest description of his own mental health problems I’ve been thinking about coming clean myself, in the hope that it might prompt someone still in the dark to reach out for help.

My own depression manifests itself in a form of apathy. The smallest tasks become gargantuan in size and weeks pass at a time where I’d gladly stay in all day feeling sorry for myself. One night before Christmas I became virtually paralyzed at work, I sat behind my desk until 9:30pm staring blankly at my computer screen like some sort of zombie.I had become totally oblivious to the outside world.The sudden realisation that I had become so apathetic frightened me so much that I was afraid to get into the car and drive home.

That night I decided to finally get help, after years of trying to convince myself that there was nothing wrong with me I took the plunge and contacted a doctor and told my family.

It’s a cliche, but opening up really was a massive weight off my chest. I’d always managed to convince myself that telling people wouldn’t be a good idea because on the surface I didn’t think I looked like someone that should be depressed considering I drink and enjoy myself just as much as the next person.

Getting it off my chest didn’t suddenly cure me of my ailments but It certainly helped. I know that some people will read this and think I’m a looper, but at the end of the day the stigma that surrounds mental health issues in Ireland will only be broken down if people can stand up and be frank about it.

There’s nothing to be ashamed about, I might come in for some slack posting this but if it helps one person take a step towards getting help it will be worth it.

I suffer from depression

Previously: Staying Alive

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An extraordinary 2013 compilation video shot from a DJI phantom quadcopter at Banzai Pipeline on the north shore of  Oahu, Hawaii by aerial photographer Eric Sterman.

Huge, deadly waves coursing over a razor sharp reef – a playground for gnarl-bothering pipe-freaks.

Music: Lindsey Stirling – Crystalize.

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(H/T: Marsupial)

Catholic sex abuse

A document obtained by The Associated Press on Friday shows Pope Benedict XVI defrocked nearly 400 priests over just two years for sexually molesting children.

The statistics for 2011 and 2012 show a dramatic increase over the 171 priests removed in 2008 and 2009, when the Vatican first provided details on the number of priests who have been defrocked.

Prior to that, it had only publicly revealed the number of alleged cases of sexual abuse it had received and the number of trials it had authorised.

While it’s not clear why the numbers spiked in 2011, it could be because 2010 saw a new explosion in the number of cases reported in the media in Europe and beyond.

Pope Defrocked 400 Priests In Two Years (AP)

(AFP)

Strypes[Cavan retro teen sensations, The Strypes]

*shakes gnarled fist*

The US-Ireland Alliance has announced that the Irish band, The Strypes, will perform at their “Oscar Wilde: Honoring the Irish in Film” event on 27 February at J.J. Abrams’ Bad Robot production company in Santa Monica. YouTube founder Chad Hurley and writer/producer Conan O’Brien will be honoured on the night.

Earning their Strypes (Us-Ireland Alliance)

Previously: The Strypes on Broadsheet

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[Volunteers at a Kibbutz in Dafna, northern Israel, 1980, top, and Eamon Delaney, above, with Israelis on military duty in 2012, “which included dressing as Arabs for ‘riot-training’]

Following the death of former Israeli Prime Minister Ariel Sharon, ‘kibbutznik’ Eamon Delaney recalls when helping Israel was a liberal cause.

I was living in a kibbutz in northern Israel in 1982 when Ariel Sharon as defence minister, ordered the ambitious and reckless invasion of Lebanon.

The kibbutz system, familiar to many Irish volunteers over the decades, was a left wing commune network, loosely associated with the establishment Labour party which had ruled Israel since its creation in 1948.

However, in 1977, the right wing Likud party came to power and in 1981, Likud was re-elected with Sharon as Defence Minister. The kibbutzniks were getting used to a Likud government but the prospect of Sharon as Defence Minister filled them with dread. They saw him as hot headed, glory hunting (he’d already had a controversial army career) and prone to needless confrontation with the surrounding Arabs.

The big question in 1982 was would Israel invade Lebanon so as to drive the Palestinian Liberation Organisation (PLO) away from Israel’s northern borders, where it was firing rockets, just like Hamas had been doing recently from Gaza. And as with Gaza, the Israel philosophy is to strike back disproportionately to deter further attacks.

But, with Sharon, it seemed to be even more than that, and the kibbutz members were convinced that he was looking for any pretext to invade Lebanon and rearrange its political landscape.And so it would be. We woke up one morning and saw a line of Israeli armour and vehicles streaming northwards, and the fisherman that I worked with in the fish ponds were gone – called up for military duty overnight.

Sharon promised he would only go 40km into Lebanon to drive the PLO north and carve out a safety zone in south Lebanon. But, giddy with apparent early success, he went all the way to Beirut, encircled the PLO and attacked the city with relentless airstrikes that appalled the world.  Most infamously, he allowed Israel’s Lebanese allies, the Christian Phalange, to enter the Palestinian refugee camps of Sabra and Chatilla, knowing full well they were sworn enemies from the Lebanese civil war.

A massacre ensured over two days, while Israel army stood back, claiming ignorance. The Israelis didn’t perpetrate it, but they seem to connived at it and, to this day, Sharon has been personally blamed, including in European countries where indictments had been made against him. Worse still, the Israelis got bogged down in Lebanon and overstayed their ‘welcome,’ giving rise to a new and ruthless resistance movement against Israel– Hezbollah.Continue reading →

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Minutes of THAT board meeting on March 25, 2013, in which the board of the Central Remedial Clinic approved former CEO Paul Kiely’s retirement package of €742,025.

Transcriptions from the Public Accounts Committee meeting here

CRC may face fraud probe in top-ups scandal (Irish Examiner)

Previously: Thud

‘You Just Feel Disgusted And Saddened’

They Just Keep On Giving

UPDATE:

 

 

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